Missing these days & my nana more than anything lately. I thought I was ready for all of us to grow up and for things to change but I’m really not. I wish I could go back in time to these days just once and re-live it all again. Love and miss you more everyday Nana, I wish you were here. 

Looking through old family photos with my cousin Matt today was bittersweet. The pictures are so funny and cute but they make me miss my nana TONS. We found so many good ones of all the cousins with her. My nana passed away the day before my twelfth birthday. All of my other cousins were over 20. My nana watched them grow up and start their own lives. I wish she could’ve seen me do that. I’m sure she can somewhere, but I wish I could hear what she has to say about it. I wish she could be with us at Christmas and see us all laughing together and how close us cousins have grown. It breaks my heart. I’ve been missing her more than anything lately, some nights I just can’t help but to let it ruin me.